I thought I was past this self hatred but it’s all come rushing back. I hate how pathetic I am, I hate how I look. I hate how I care about what people think of me. I keep crying tonight and Alex will be going home soon so harming is definitely a possiblity on the agenda. I’m so pathetic.
tagged as Thoughts. Personal. Depression.
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Had a bit of a break down and my mum had a huge go at me for being ridiculous. How can I heal in this kind of fucking environment? Obviously, I can’t.
tagged as Personal. Thoughts. Depression.
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My social anxiety is getting the better of me. Why are people so rude? I can’t even share an opinion on my blog any more.
tagged as Depression. Thoughts.
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If you know me well then you know I’ve been a victim of rape and abuse. I used to have nightmares about it but haven’t for months. I just had one, it was so real and awful. I don’t know why this suddenly came on but I don’t like it.
tagged as Personal. Depression. Nightmares.
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Cutting feels like the only option right now but I won’t break.
tagged as Depression. Personal.
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When I saw Kerry yesterday she told me that I have to accept myself and if that means making some changes then so be it. After this broken foot is healed I’ll be working harder on excerise. I promise myself this just so I can be happier with myself.
tagged as Personal. Thoughts. Depression.
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A picture speaks a thousand words.
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1800-SUICIDE
I am here for all my followers, 100% :) I love all you guys.
My foot is killing me, seriously I’ve never had a broken bone hurt this much. And the painkillers keep making me vomit. And Alex seems to be too busy to talk to me. Answer your phone, bitch!
Today is awesome. It really fucking is.
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